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ok so this is gonna be a long live jouranl entry r u ready. hah
i have just been thinking about alot lately. like this year my life has changed so much. ive made so many new amazing friends its unreal. i am more open to people and more open-minded. ive experienced alot more. too i know this sounds dumb but i feel like im getting older. im already 17 some people say thats young but ive just now turned this age and now experienced a little more freedom. there are some things i wish i had. like i wish i maybe was a little bit skinnier and had more guys. but i take pride in what i have. so ive done some things. so ive smoked a cigarrete before and so ive driniking a beer. shoot me. i dont smoke weeed and i dont do any other things. i dont have sex i dont party alot. so people need to stop judging me. i wish i had a boy that loved me. i wish i had a boyfriend. hah i wish i was gay so that i woldnt have to be constnantly let down by boys. ohh well what do u expect. i wanna fall in love really bad. but whatever i will one day. i dont wanna sound all sappy and derpressing at shit. ok so now heres a fast forward into my life now
my job sucks asss lora is badd ass and shess leaving heb.
i miss all my frineds golden dale laci and everyone else
i never hang out wiht any of my old friend which i stilll love katy calah tera ryan steph u know u are
my mom told me that me and my friends the way we dress we look like we could do drugs haha
and i got fucking stripped searched today at shcool by the drug dogs and theye foudn a lighter in my purse. haha i hope they expell me
and now im about to go do some reasearch crap for school. wow i love my life. k im sarcasing but its not that bad. if u think i gay for writing this live jouranl entry then fuck u and dont read it. ps i forgot to mention cadi omggg hahah shes badd ass as well. k (ps boys are hott) <3
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